The general feedback from the last post was more along the line of pure disgust, to which, at first I was all “what are you talking about – it wasn’t that bad”. Then I realized the line of ‘disgusting’ has been crossed so far that the line is now a dot to me, and sometimes my social graces forget that not everyone tolerates such mental imagery like some of us sick-folk.
I actually don't have anything to say right now... I just want to write to tell you that I am well aware of the fact that I have totally fallen off the deep end. And I mean deep deep deep end. I have so many stories that come to mind when I'm driving, or falling asleep, then I get busy or forget or get complete mental block and can't summon the energy to write it out.
Then I feel like I get too far behind and start forgetting particular highlight-worthy moments! This is where you can come in... did I have a great conversation with you over text during a particular ridiculous med school/life moment that you can remember!? Send ME a message and relay it back to me!! I need to be reminded!
I was just looking at some of the earlier times I wrote on here and was shocked! Firstly, by the fact that I started this in 2011 and we are already well into 2013. Shit.
Secondly, at how many times I posted in a friggin month back then!! What the hell happened you guys!? Now it's like 4 months in between stupid stories. My first thought was, 'wow girl! you were so diligent and really on top of your shit with balancing school and blog crap!'. This was quickly followed by, 'wow girl. you really had no friends. you really didn't get out much. you really had no outlet source whatsoever. I'm surprised you didn't write more! sad sad little girl'.
Actually I know what happened... I got back to North America and got a phone where you are now at my fingertips! And facetime. and skype. Thanks a lot imessage. you totally screwed my goal of medschool documentation.
Reality: I still don't have many friends in school. I still don't get out much. I should be writing more. but alas. I suck right now.
Eugh. Seriously I'm so pathetic right now. I finished pediatrics, and I can confidently say - I will not be a pediatrician. Now I'm in ob/gyn. Finished week 2/6. Aaaaaaand already I can strongly say - I will not be an obstetrician or gynecologist. Eugh. Not. For. Me. No. Nono. No no no no. No.
On a different note. I totes wanted to bitch slap an OR nurse today. I also had the pleasure of dealing with a twat-faced bitch of an attending. She's the kind that hates students (I'm sorry I wasn't aware there was a school you could go to where you went straight into being an effing attending!); doesn't want you to scrub in on cases so you are stuck standing in a corner with the trash and can't see for shit; doesn't acknowledge your existence as a human-friggin-being (I shit you not. Today she did the hand gesture to say "I need a pen stat", so as I was right beside her and had my pen handy, I pull it out of my pocket and hold it out for her... the bitch doesn't take my pen. Just stands there, looking through me as I stand with my pathetic pen-in-hand floating in the air, and waits for the resident to go across the room to get his pen.)
Some of my favorite ecards came to mind - particularly today - as I was hidden behind my surgical gown and mask...
To the OR nurse today.
To majority of my classmates
and a very important prayer to me
Okay seriously you guys (you know who you are!!), send me a message telling me YOUR favourite story I have shared with you so far!! Help a pathetic girl out!
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